The holidays are extremely hard. I find myself feeling as if i am looking for something all the time, i realized it’s you. It’s amazing how much you can miss a person, it hurts like nothing i could ever imagine. Having the family together is a constant reminder of your absence. I love you so much. I miss you so much. I cry for you often and laugh as well when i see your pictures or watch videos of you. But one thing i do very often is smile when I think of you and all our memories. Happy Thanksgiving Rachel.